sacred shedding
honoring the moments that shaped who I am.
it’s wild to think about all of the moments that led me to become who I am. while I have alchemized so much in this journey, there was still so much I held onto as part of my identity, allowing it to flavor my experience in life. after a long season of unraveling + holding space, I finally see the next step - in order to fully honor my evolution, I have to be willing to let go of all the versions of me that led me here.
in that, here lies an ode to the moments that shaped me.
to the 9 year old proudly initiated into womanhood who felt an immediate repression + shame of her body.
to the 11 year old who watched her father cry hysterically as she left him to move across the country.
to the 13 year old bullied because she took a seat at the “cool kids table.”
to the 14 year old who rebelled in disbelief amongst the catholic church.
to the 17 year old caught stealing the clothes she couldn’t afford.
to the 23 year old who moved out of a “dying city” to follow her dreams.
to the 24 year old called back to religion only to find no resonance again.
to the 30 year old ridiculed for going to therapy.
to the 35 year old who left a stable career to be a leader of change.
to the 36 year old who hired a coach.
to the 37 year old laid off who invested $10K in a coaching certification to follow her intuition.
to the 38 year old laid off again who leaned in, started her business + invested another $15K.
to the 40 year old who sold her belongings amidst a pandemic to release stagnancy, travel the world + grow her business.
to the 41 year old who invested another $25K into herself while her business was still unstable.
to the 43 year old writing this who is following her MF dreams while she navigates the wild ride of walking with courage + fear.
here is the wisdom you always needed, from the heart of the wisest version of me.
you were always enough to me. nothing ever mattered to me, but you. you never needed anyone else to see because the wisdom + truth within you is stronger than what any of them could give you. they never were enough - it was always you; you were who you always needed.
earlier today, I completed a ceremony that allowed me to witness my past from the wisest part of me. in that, I finally set her free. now, she lives in me wild, beautiful + independent - a part that shaped me, but no longer waiting to be acknowledged, accepted, loved.
sometimes I like to amplify the energy around things by publicly sharing - whether I’m releasing or calling in. I write this in part to honor + in part to take radical responsibility of me moving forward with the clarity of my wise woman. these inner parts of me are not forgotten, but set free.
I stand, you stand. together, we rise. xo
KQ
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